No news is good news

I know this is an IF blog, but I have literally no infertility news to tell you..

Still on round 2 of BC (just about 3 weeks left, yippee)

Still feel cruddy & bloated and nauseous at times, tho it's getting a little better thank God. I don't even want to weight myself, my jeans are super tight, no matter how much I run or do HOT yoga (isn't the weight suppose to "melt" off of you??).

What's next... well... hard to say.  I always said that if we stopped "trying" I'd go back on BC (I would not like a 'surprise' at 40..too many risks for me to handle). So now that I'm back on (supposedly temporarily), do we stop trying.. no more IUI's, no more RE's?

I had an epiphany when we were on vaca, I would be ok sans kids.  I talked to the hubby about this and he agreed (he's always been so supportive all through this,  as it's "our" journey).  We're soon-to-be mid-thirties and we're sort of set in our ways. We have a routine.  I'm so sick of feeling sad for myself.  Honestly.  It's pathetic really.

SO we have 3 weeks to decide if we stop or move forward.  One big thing is we pre-paid for 3 IUI's. We have had 2 complete IUI cycles so we have one left.  They don't "expire" so we could always do it later, but I have a feeling, knowing me, if I'm back on BC 100% I won't go on/off it again, it's just too tough.

Sooo stay tuned I guess.

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In other (happy) news, I'm running a race with one of my sistas this weekend!   Weather report is looking coooolddd

9 am

33°F Feels Like 26°F

At least it will be sunny..lets hope the wind holds out.

Cheers to the weekend!! 

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Any fun plans?

Birth Control and ramblings

Back in the day, going on BC was nbd.  I was young (how young? I'll never tell..mom or dad could be reading) and fearless and feelin' no pain. I don't remember feeling any different.  I started BC to regulate my cycle and get rid of painful cramps...well in later years it was out of necessity to not have a baby.  You know, be responsible and all that.  


Now, 32 yrs old, starting BC again sux. Really sux.
Day 1: Feel no difference, maybe a tad tired (tho maybe that was from the wine Sat night??).
Day 2: Cranky, like super cranky, poor hubby. Super headaches. Nauseous.
Day 3: Mood swings, bloated - I feel fat in yoga pants - bloated.
Day 4: Still bloaty, gained 4 lbs. eek..will the scale continue to tick up?


As I read the side effects, I guess what I am experiencing is normal:

Common Necon side effects may include headaches, a decrease in sex drive, and bloating. This eMedTV page describes other side effects that have been reported with birth control pills (including Necon) and also lists potentially serious side effects.

But still not fun. So it comes down to the question of whether to continue as our RE recommends or stop taking after this cycle and just hope the follie passes. 


Such decisions....


In other news, we're headed home for the Easter weekend! 

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My favorite place in the whole world. Not only because we get to see our family (and our niece!!) and celebrate Easter together but because we can run hills!  


My half marathon is coming up and the only hills I've ran have been the slight inclines from the Fox River Trail up to the street. Multiple times. Sad as it is, I've ran miles up and down these "hills" because of the big Florida bridges in the half that are scarrry.  

This frightens me.  And did I mention the heat. It's 32 degrees in WI right now and 79 (!!) in Clearwater.  Not that I'm complaining, I will bask in the Fla heat.. but running hills in it. Not so much. 


So hills here we come! 


Cheers!

The strong ones

We watched a Barbara Walters Special on Progeria last weekend.  These kids and their families are amazing.  These kids are something special. A true gift from God.  Barbara tactfully (not really but whatever) asked one of the mothers if she ever wonders why, why did this happen to their child. The mother responded I think it happened because we are strong enough to handle it.  This has made our relationship, our family, stronger.

I looked at FD and said, she's right, I can name many couples whose marriage probably wouldn't have survived the stress this has put on us. Fortunately for us, it has made our relationship stronger. But I'm at the point where I don't want to be strong anymore, I don't want to handle it, I want to be a normal family.

If there ever is a 'normal.'    

I don't want to be all doom and gloom on ya, so lets talk races. I have two planned since we were benched.  A 5K and a 1/2 marathon. The 5K is with a friend whose wedding is in a few months, it will be her first timed race!

Happy running!
Cheers!

To run or not to run

Anyone who knows me knows I love to run. It's such a great stress reliever not to mention a great workout. I'm not fast by any means, but it's my thing.  I love to go outside in the early morning when everyone is sleeping.  I also love to run with the FD (husband). Almost every weekend (pre IUIs) we were out there running, come rain or shine (or snow!).

The last race I ran was the Marquette half-marathon and it was an awesome race in my home town.  Now, 6 months later I'm getting the race itch.  Callie, The Wannabe Athlete, mentioned a half marathon in Clearwater Fla and it happens to fall on a weekend when we will be there! Callie is a HUGE inspiration (both for running and her life in general), if you haven't already, head over to her Blog.

Despite the IUI next week, I'm debating on whether to run it. If (and it's a big if) I am pg I would only run the 5K, but if not, why not run the full half?  I could start training come 4/1 which should be plenty of time.  Then comes the question, do we then take a month off of IUIs or give it a 5th shot?

Oh such decisions! I have until 4/15 when the race fees increase, so until then I will wait with bells on (or running shoes :)  ).

Happy Friday!!
Cheers :-)

Inspirational run

This weekend, despite this:

I ran 8.15 glorious miles. and I.was.so.excited. A few months ago, 8 miles was nothing. Today, 8 miles was a long run.  I was (am?) a marathoner. Love running. Love races, but with TTC running has become less of a priority.  But today I ran.  I will continue to run and enjoy running for the next two weeks (until IUI#3). Even tho studies show no harmful effects of running when TTC, I have been taking my workouts down a notch for the "2 week wait."

We started the process of IUI#3 (really #4 but since #2 was a big fat fail, it's technically #3) yesterday.  Drugs include Femara (7.5 mg), Tamoxifen (20 mg) and Estrace (4mg). New to me this month: Tamoxifen.  Since my lining has been on the light side (6.2 on CD10 and RE is looking for >7) RE prescribed this.   Dr Google says Tamoxifen blocks the production of estrogen, however, in Breast cancer patients, Tamoxifen thickens the uterine lining.  So with that, in addition to Estrace (Estrogen which causes the uterine lining to grow), RE thinks this should help.  Since FD (the hubby) has 'super sperm' and all is free and clear on my side (been producing 2-3 follicles each month), this is our best option.   As my father says "we're all in!"

Third time is a charm?  Plus we have the luck of the irish on our side!

Cheers :-)