Knock Knock..anyone out there?

So I've been neglecting the Blog big time.  It's been way too long...

Update (**Baby update.. feel free to skip over**)

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I am currently 35 weeks pregnant (!!!), seriously where has the time gone.   Baby now has a 99% survival rate if born at this stage.  Of course, there are still many other risks that I worry about.... but positive thinking, right?  If you would have told me last year, amongst the fertility treatments, that it WILL happen, I would never have believed it.  Last year at this time, we were on IUI #3.  I of course still remember the heartbreak of every drive to Madison, every tear shed, every negative test.  It's something I'll never forget.  But it got us here and I wouldn't wish the experience away. 

Ok, that's it for now.  END of baby update.

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There are a few IF blogs I've read throughout the years; while I don't comment on most of them, they have really helped me a ton.   Not only can I relate & learn from them, it's nice to know you're not alone.  Jenny from Among the Blossoms is one I read here and there.  After 8 years of IF, she conceived naturally (!!??) and just had a baby.  Crazy.  She had a post that I wanted to share.

This post talks about running into strangers who spill their IF stories.  This post really hit home because it happens to me all the time.  It's like we want to share..we want to relay our story because maybe someone else is struggling and we can help.  Or we just want to get it out. Who knows.  Anyway, take a quick read, it's interesting.

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Cheers, spring is almost here (I hope!). 

Kicked out of the IF club

Hello my dear friends,

Happy Tuesday.  For anyone looking for an IF update, please return 26 days from now as I am on CD2 of BC (take two).

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I read Blogs.  Fitness blogs, food blogs, running blogs, and infertility blogs.  All sorts of people in all sorts of places blogging about life and their daily happenings.

I read food, running and fitness blogs because these are things I love. I love learning tricks of the trade so to speak.  I read IF blogs because I feel less alone.  I feel like these people are my 'friends' and I can relate to them, even tho I've never met any of them in person.

So what happens when an IF becomes part of the 'mom club' and has to put her IF status away?  I can tell you as an IF who has never seen that BFP, I stop reading these blogs.  I'm so envious happy for them, I wouldn't wish this on anyone, but I just can't bear to read about one more BFP that I might never see.

I wonder what these former IF's feel?  I'm sure they are happy to be out of the IF club, but do they always consider themselves IF or do they consider themselves graduated and happy to move on?

I have no idea what seeing that BFP feels like, I am so envious of others that get to this point.  I think of seeing that BFP like a race where I can't seem to get to the finish line.  Feels like I'm running in circles getting nowhere.

Speaking of races, one of my sisters, my dad and I ran a race this past weekend. I have a full recap coming, but they were rockstars!!! My sister and I finished our 10 mile race in 1:31.  Great time as 3.8 miles of this race was trail running. Beat.me.dead. trail running.  It was tough but I am so proud of my family!
Also a shout out to my mom and other sister who cheered us on at the finish line <3

Cheers!