****If Infertility is a sensitive subject or you are dealing with sensitive IF issues, please feel free to skip this post as this discusses IF & pregnancy. Thank you for reading and Happy NY - this is a start to a new year *****
Being IF for just under 4 years means I obviously still have IF friends. Bloggers, Facebook, Real life, etc. I'm sure it's super tough for them to see me, talk to me, etc and it's totally understandable. I've been there. I've been the one skipping showers, dismissing emails/texts/calls, hiding them on Facebook because I couldn't bear to hear about pregnancy, baby bellies, etc. It's just heartbreaking. My heart truly breaks for everyone suffering from IF. It really is an unspoken disease and I hope by blogging, I have helped even one person <3
The reason for this post is being in this situation, I have no idea what to do. How would I have wanted my 'IF graduated' friends to act? Do? And thinking back, nothing. Stop emailing me, stop texting/calling and just go about your life until that baby belly is gone and you have a healthy baby. Somehow, for me, the sting was less when the baby arrived.
The problem with that, is that is just not me. I'm not one to ignore my IF friends just because I'm pregnant. I understand they have no desire to hear about my pregnancy and I respect that.
Some people say when you're formerly overweight, you're still the 'fat person' inside (meaning no disrespect), well I'm still the IF girl inside.
I know I just have to realize that life changes and there will be some people that just can't bear to see me/us. And I totally get it. I just have a hard time with letting go I guess..These people have gotten me through rough times and I am not one to forget about them.
For now, I must respect their (silent) wishes and let them be, hoping that someday we will reconnect and praying that they will too will experience this gift. Have faith.