For most of us infertiles there are mental milestones that we keep track of. i.e. this time next year I'll be pg; this time last year I thought I'd be pg; Summer baby! Holidays (Holidays.are.the.worst), etc.
One of my many milestones, as funny as it sounds, is the dentist. I am one of those crazy people that get their teeth cleaned every 4 months. I hate dirty teeth :D So every time you sit in that big comfty chair the first question they ask is "Any Health Changes?" Every 4 months for the past 3.5 years (10 times if your counting :) ) I've wished and hoped maybe next time I'll get to say (scream) YES! I do have a health change. But sadly, this morning, I had to say no. Tho I did have to update her on the meds I'm taking, I suppose that's something?
The hygenist, as sweet as can be, raised her eyebrows as I listed the fertility drugs. She was first curious, asking all the questions many non-infertiles do, how long have you been trying, how many 'procedures' have you done, etc. Then came the optimism: "It's going to work this time, I feel it." God love her, and her optimism. Roll back to IUI#1 in Nov, we were so excited to be doing "something" other than timed ic (and btw how seksi is "timed ic"). Now, IUI#4 I'm skeptical. I *try* to be optimistic - positive thinking right?
So until June, I will keep thinking of that optimism she showed and hope that I can say, yes, I have a health change!
PS I love this pic of St Lucia...ahhhhh