I feel I've become a hater. I'll get back to this.
The Reunion was ok. Not as bad as I expected, actually everything went off without a hitch. We had an ok turnout, there were the same girls that always show to these things. The ones that look at you and judge. I stayed far away from them. However, as one of them is my beloved relative, I know they now know my situation. And I hate her for that.
Hate is a strong word. I hate that I'm a hater.
I hate when I see someone on FB pregnant. Especially when they have 'had problems' (aka have probably been TTC for a year) and they've left the IF group.
I hate that I have to hide from friends with new babies because I don't want to hang with them and ohh and ahh for them. But I love holding babies.
I hate that I hate pregnant bellies. At the reunion there were 4 pregnant girls (yes I counted in between Vodka/Waters). I (internally) hated them too. But I played the part and said my 'congrats' and 'you look great.'
I wish I wasn't feeling this way and I wish I had a way to get past this.
I don't want to be a hater forever.
Any tips IFs?